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The Wicked One's Den of Sin!

Dec. 26th, 2015 09:24 pm The state of my Yuletide

(Because I got Things to Say, and also couldn't wait to brag any longer.)
I defaulted this year. I've never done so before- always posted before deadline (if only hours before) because while I am Clutch, and I need a hard stop, I also am OCD. So between Yuletide starting and now, we lost three people at work with no real replacements in sight, so I was pulling in 48 hour workweeks, I went on the fantastic vacation of my dreams- I can gush on and on, but I won't now, and wrecked my car while at a Star Trek convention (!) and had to replace it on the fly, but ended up with the car of my dreams. All this while a blank page kept staring at me.
I thought about my prompts everywhere, I brought a little notebook on vacation, envisioning myself writing while free of care, but instead I kept a travelogue. I false started in hotels, at work, on the computer and longhand, I got drunk and tried, I got high and tried, I combined the two, and suddenly there was no time left and I realized that I wasn't going to get my shit together in time and I like my recip and didn't want her eventual writer to be screwed. I didn't have a story, and figured it was just as well, it'd be the Yuletide That Never Was, and maybe I'd think about a NYR when my life stabilized a bit.
I was at work when I got the notification. I had looked at some point, enough to know I'd gotten something, and in what fandom, but no shaking beyond that. Had to wait out the rest of work to get home and tear into this Tomorrowland story- http://archiveofourown.org/works/5463680 Gift Guides for Grumpy Bastards, which made me laugh. I have all the love for this story, it just unfolds so well, and man, there were so many moments that I just smiled, and laughed (because the snark is strong, and I'm a sucker for it) and it was just what I wanted. I'm so happy right now, and I didn't think I would be about Yuletide again (you don't know how lazy I've called myself, not being able to write, when I used to feel the words itching to come out, but I can see that I've had a bit of a time, writing it all out- gonna have to give myself a half-pass on this one) and I'm just glowing. So well played, unknown author. You made me feel like Casey, seeing the girl beckon her aboard!

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